You might look at me differently after this.

Wishing that there is someone to be there for me and understand how I truly feel without hesitating. i'm tired of being there for people. why can I understand other's problems but not my own? i don't know that. maybe its because the situation i am and was in is totally different from them. i know there are people who helped me and really cared for me but thats just one part of me. tere's this whole big chunk of Morgan that no one in this world knows about. i may be fake sometimes but its just my way to make my life easier.

I thought to myself, "maybe this is meant to be because of the people i hurt in the past." i really don't know. just wanna say sorry and thank you to those people who came and went for these past years. Sorry that i hurt you, thank you for making me realise what i've done. i really envy how the people around me can be so lively and active while i'm the one here whining about this and that. or maybe they just look like they're happy from the outside. if so, then i'm not the only one.

Why break down now? i just can't help it anymore. it's been two years now that i've been plastering this smile on my face. i guess even the most adhesive glue is bound to come off sooner or later. no offence to those that cared. i think the ones that are close to me realise that some of my smiles are fake or you can say 'too fake'. i'm really really sorry for that. sometimes i don't realise it myself. when i'm not in the mood, then i'm not in the mood for anything. only the sight of a few people can change how i feel. thanks again to those people. wanna know who those people are? =)

(1) Choo Thien Leng, Denise
(2) Hong Boo Liang, Nigel
(3) Shim Jan Jin
(4) Wong Woan Yee, Janice

Yes you people.. you guys really dont know how much i enjoy the time when i'm with you all.. you may think that this is all weird but this is how i feel. i'm just expressing how i feel right now. wanted to say this for a long time already.

THANK YOU !

Every single thing you guys did to/for/with me will be kept in my mind. i may not mean a lot to you but you mean the whole lot to me. i think there's no way to express how thankful i am. =) but just so you guys know.. its all coming from the bottom of my heart.

If all of you were to combine together, then I have God by my side already.

你们在我的心里已经是英雄了!

P.S. // thanks Shu'aib for caring while I was writing this in Maths Class =)